birthday wishes from you bum me out cause that means you still exist.

first

i never really fell out of love -

i just muted the most heartfelt part of my soul.

i don't even miss you anymore..

..it's just a good excuse for the sadness.

i need to subtract back to 17 -

when there were only variations of one emotion -

before i knew that happiness had an expiration date

and once it's spoils,

it can never be revived.

if your true self was known

not even the dog would like you.

what's the power of apathy?

does it erase feelings?

replace feelings?

or simply replace me.

the more the merrier -

unless the one is missing.